Blackrose6767

Staring at the same blank wall Been this way awhile You're happy sitting in the dark alone With your tv and gaming system I watch as my life slowly slips away I thought there was hope for you To get you out of this zombie shell But maybe I was wrong I thought I saw the light in your eyes.. To tired to fight To tired to cry Not tonight That's what I said last night And the night before The excuses keep piling up But I don't care They say pick the hill you want to die upon And its not gonna be this one No not for me. Didn't they tell me this was how it was gonna be? This is what they all warned me of He will not change He will never change

"Stop acting as if its the end of the world" "Stop chasing your sin" "I'm not good enough.." "I have to consider all parties.." "I'm sorry for everything.." "Stop chasing your sin" "I hate myself" "You know this is the consiqences for your choice" "I'm so lonely" "I have to consider all parties.." "I just want to be around people.." "You know this is the consiqences for your choice" "I know.." "I just want to stop the pain" "I won't be a problem anymore" "Never again" "Oh God let me die!" Voices echo over and over in my head once again. A shaky breath exhales through my parted lips.. "I've swallowed my own tears, and I took the p

I'm beginning to remember it all But you're as cold as ice You don't have the same look in your eyes for me I'm sorry I had to make you bleed I just wanted to breath and be free And now that freedom has cost you, me.. us I want to reach out and touch you But I can't, you can't.. I replay it all over again And if I could turn this around I'd change it all, I'd be the person I was suppose to be I would give my part 100 percent But I can't change it And baby.. How I wish you would read this I just want to lay my life back Into your hands, but they don't reach for me anymore... They are not for me.. And what I would do, to make you look at me

Light.. darkness The grey and the gold The yellow and the sorrow I've raised my hands above this place I feel the dirt fall from my hands I've buried you alive! And I muffled out your screams I shut out your pain In vain for my own emotions Can't stand to hear you cry And she danced in red And she played you in colors of red She lies and she steals your very soul! But all she wants is to know true love You muffled her cries and her lies You buried her alive Can you not see anything good left in her? Was she just a waste of life, or is there something else? Love cries across this ocean of broken memories Love cries out against this dessert

I memorize, every imperfection In my reflection.. Its not the face I see But the person I've become to be I see what I want, but I can't reach Can't even speak Hello? Does anyone understand? I'm not my number one fan I can count every scar Countless as the stars A battle I've won But a war I'm still fighting Inside, inside! And you darling Stand there with that smile Oh, how I wish I could be More like you! To see myself the way you do Would change my whole world Simple and silly girl How could you dream so big! You're to small to reach them And the demons in my head Still shout out I can't The ghost of my past and the skeletons.. In my cl